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Tuesday, April 18, 2006

i cried myself to sleep yesterdae.once more.i have to get this rite..haiss.i got to solve all those confusion in me..

is there anyone out there?

would u answer my prayer?

tel me why am i feelin this.

tell me what has got me into this.

tel me who would be the one for me,

to get me out of those pains n hurts.

i need sumone who cares for me,

to guide me in this journey.

i need sumone special,

to lead me back to the startin point

when i first get to love.

i nvr thought,

i would love n fall so badly=[

todae was in rtc the whole dae.i get indoor lahhs...alone....i was kinda discouraged.teachers are all accusin me of bein rude etc.i did yes i noe,but..haiiss...i skip assembly n oral..cuz its too borin!! dun expect me top go back n etc....hahas..ya lo...

todae esther ye got go rtc..so cute lahhs...but,i dunno ehhx..dunno how am i feelin now....just sad...i help to clean rtc todae lohs..i sweep floor etc lahhs...ehhx,den help out..but i manage to go back for accountss...yup...onli that in rtc,my heartbeat veri fast.hahas...xiner pass by me todae n knock into me=[

jazmin broke up with her boyfren todae..she like veri the sad ehhx..yupp she is..cuz she shared so many memories with him...four more daes their two months...at least they manage to celebrate one month together,i dun even have a chance!haiis...nvmx...dun think abt this le...dun sad ba..

family stands for "father and mother i love you"

let me tell u,i hate family.i dun have one..n i would nvr love a family.

i shall just treat it as i dun have a family.

oh please,anyone who wants to ever mention abt this issue,dun sae it in front of me.

my anger will vent anytime.

i dun wan to waste my tears cryn for such matters.

it is not worth it!!!=[

i can never take back those love i once gave u.

i can pretend,that nothin ever happen before.

i cant find the direction back to the startin point,

when i first love you.

i will have to pretend that i dun love u anymore.

i will have to pretend that no history ever happen before.

i will have to get this clear,thats theres no longer any chemistry for us.

i need to fake a wide smile out when i see you,

i need to fake it out that im leadin a happi life.

i need to turn away before my tears ever fall.

i need to get u out of my mind,i cant handle the pain.

i want to scream it out loud,

that i still love you!

my love for you

will slowly fade away

as the picture of ur smile

slowly fade away from my mind

1515pm.

{ soulful writings by } ]]x[loving you hurts]x[ at
11:49 PM

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